In memory of my daughter Sonia

If we could have a life-time wish
A dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God with all our hearts for yesterday and you.
A thousand words can't bring you back
We know because we tried.
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we cried.
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too...
But we never wanted memories,
We only wanted you

Val Lewies South Africa




missingmichael
Michael, My Son

On the Night God took you from me,
The pain in my heart was unbearable,
I wanted to hug you, tell you I loved you,
And let you know that I was here,
And everything would be okay.
But you see, I didn't get that chance,
They would not allow me near you.
You see, I was told it was a crime scene,
And I might mess up evidence.
My son, Michael, what had happened?

I wonder where the time went?
I still need more time with you.
Your sons and family need more time.
I ask a lot of whys??
No one has any answers.
And still there are no answers.

With people all around me
I feel alone inside,
A part of me died when your were taken,
Words of comfort, just words,
No one seems to know what to say,
And the words don’t matter,
They are just words,
No one knows how I feel.
My heart is breaking
Michael, My Son, you see was murdered.
I can’t seem to hide,

I thought I might be dreaming
I thought I'd awake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening,
It’s a dream and I would wake soon."
My Son, Michael, I am awake
And I still can’t believe you are gone.

Again I wiped away the tears,
On the day that you were laid to rest
Again my heart broke,
It was so unfair, such a cruel and vicious act.
Again, I am filled with anger.
I want you home with us.

I wonder if the pain will end,
And mostly, I wonder when??
It's hard to be without you,
Hear your voice,
See your smile,
See those blue eyes,
Tell you I love you.
And wish there was more time to tell you
How very important you were to me
And how much I Loved You.

There are days that seem so long,
Especially, when I am alone.
Sometimes, I just sit crying,
I’m missing you so much.
I wish we'd had more time
It was so unfair that your life ended
So tragically..
And, Again Why???

I know God has his wings around you
And holding you close
And keeping you safe
And above all no more pain.

I love and miss you
My Son, Michael.

Mom
August 22, 2006
 

                M - is for loving to meet new people.
                E - is for every lasting friendships, she had with her friends.
                L - is for loving life, her friends and her cat. (Bug)
                I - is for being interested and trusting others people.
                S - is for her beautiful smile we all miss everyday.
                S - is for sharing with other people her compassion.
                A - is for actions that spoke Louder than words that she cared about                     people.
                    The is what we all miss about Melissa (Missy)
                    Written by her Mom, Sue Ryder

Sweet Pea”
I will never know why we were forced to say goodbye,
With no reason or explanation given as to why.
One woman’s anger spun completely out of control,
Injuries your delicate body could not with hold,
As they lowered you forever in that deep, dark, hole.
“Why?” I ask Jesus, Why take such a perfect little jewel?
You were hurt beyond survival even more than we all knew.
She shook you to death, until you gasped completely blue in the face,
Later we were told that this was Oklahoma’s worst case.
You were taken before Mother’s Day! ,
one month before you birthday,
As you would’ve celebrated your first on the 17th of May.
Mommy can’t sleep, Daddy refuses to eat,
Sending our wedding bands to Heaven resembling something sweet.
I stand up to fight for you, most prized possession of mine,
So many prayers sent with love never for a second slipping my mind.
You are in a place now where pain does not exist,
As forever and always you’ll be, at the top of my list.
Please rest my beautiful blessing from God,
Mommy will see to Melinda’s punishment, as the trial drags on.
I’ll see you forever in each of my nightly dreams,
As you always knew best how! much I Love You
My Little Sweet Pea!

Christopher Bourdin

MY SON, MY LOVE, MY SOUL.

I LOVED YOU BEFORE I FIRST HELD YOU.

YOU DIDN’T DESERVE TO BE MURDERED.

 YOU WOULD NEVER HAVE DONE THAT TO HIM.

I WOULD HAVE GIVEN MY LIFE IN PLACE OF

YOURS IF I COULD HAVE. BUT NOW I CAN

ONLY HOPE THAT THE ANGELS HELD YOU TIGHT

 AS I WOULD HAVE HAD I BEEN THERE.

I  WONDER IF THEY KISSED YOUR CHEEK AND

 REMINDED YOU THAT  I LOVE  YOU SO

MUCH AND WOULD FOREVER GRIEVE FOR YOU.

AND DID THEY WHISPER IN YOUR EAR

THAT YOU WOULD NOT GO ALONE?

DID THEY KNOW THAT A PART OF ME WOULD

GO WITH YOU?  EACH DAY THAT YOUR ARE

 AWAY GETS HARDER TO BARE.   MY WORLD

 HAS BECOME A VERY DARK PLACE WITH LOTS

 OF TALL WALLS.  BUT I CAN TAKE ONE

MINUTE AT A TIME WITH YOU ALWAYS ON

MY MIND,  IN MY HEART AND BY MY SIDE. 

I LOOK SO FORWARD TO THE TIME I AM WITH

 YOU AGAIN…. FOREVER. I AM SO SORRY THAT

 I CAN’T LET YOU GO, BUT I JUST CAN’T. 

PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR THAT. 

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH,

MOMMA

WILLIAM "BILLY" TRIMBACH
SEPTEMBER 30, 1966------FEBRUARY 14, 1993
IF ONLY WE HAD KNOWN
If only we had known that day, when he made "her" his wife,
That he was walking innocently towards the end of his life.
As he vowed to love and care for her, till death do they part,
He innocently gave his life to this woman as he gave her his heart.
Exactly one year later, on their anniversary day,
The phone rang with the news that turned our blue skies gray.
My brother had been missing since the previous night,
They had begun the searching at the first sign of daylight.
The evening of that Valentines Day, so many years ago,
We received that haunting phone call that was the final blow.
My brother had been found, on the side of a frontage road,
The word "murder" rang through my mind, as I felt I would explode.
I silently hung the phone up and fell to my knees in tears,
My brother's life was over; we wouldn't be growing old together over the years.
We suffered the pain of losing a loved one in such a cruel, harsh way,
Please Dear Lord, be with us all and give us peace this day.
Please let us feel your warmth, as you gently touch our hand,
And fill us with the peace of your spirit, as you spread love across the land.
And if you will, Dear Lord I pray, would you deliver a message for me,
Please tell my brother that we miss him and will love him for all eternity.

©Sarah Trimbach Eklund February 2000


NO LIFE

I have no life anymore
Since they came through our door.
My son was all that mattered.
My heart now is torn and shattered.
My only son Gerrick was special; like no other.
He treated them ALL just like a brother.
But they were murderers at heart
Who tore our family apart.
Someday, Someway, they ALL gotta' pay
For taking my Dear Sons' life away.

GERRICK B. DAVIES
January 21, 1986 ~ February 09, 2004
[I found my dear precious son Gerrick murdered in our own home 19 days after his 18th birthday]
I love you and miss you so very much my Gerrick!
By: Gerrick's mother,
Diane Davies


Darryl James Tucker

My Star

I am the vessel used to honor your life on earth
I wonder how much love you took with you to heaven
I hear you say I love you in my dreams
I see your love through your brother
I want to hug you one more time
I am your mother
I pretend I can turn back the hands of time
I feel your love everywhere
I touch your picture to feel your presence
I worry if you miss me as much as I miss you
I cry when I cannot hear your voice
I am your mother
I understood God's purpose for your life
I say I will see you again
I dream of being in heaven with you
I try to imagine spending eternity with you
I know I will see you again
I am your mother
LaRonda LaMothe-Tucker


Dotty Brant from Langhorne, PA Amy Joy's Mom
 
I wrote this on March 2, 2005 in the morning at work
 
           Missing Amy Joy
 
    Time goes by for me my Amy Joy
    But not for you
    Where you're at there is no time
    Only eternity.

    My mother's heart longs for you
    To see you, hear you, to touch you
    But you're on the other side where
    I can't go so my heart must be
    content to see you in my mind.

    Almost four long years without
    your smile, laugh, and beauty
    Oh how the days go by and then
    the years since you were taken
    from me.
   
    Life does go on it seems - one can't
    stop it even if one trys
    But I will always cry for you and
    long to see my Amy Joy, my baby,
    my little woman, my gift.
    
    Always my love,
    Mother

BROKEN DREAMS  

HERE I SIT, ON MY BED OF BROKEN DREAMS

WITH ACHING HEART AND SILENT SCREAMS

THE SUN RISES BUT REFUSES TO SHINE,

SO MANY QUESTIONS TORMENTING MY MIND

IT HAS TAKEN IT'S TOLL, ALL THIS LOSS,

MY FAITH QUESTIONED, HEART BROKEN, FAMILY TORN APART,

EVILS PATH I'VE CROSSED FOR THE SUN RISES BUT REFUSES TO SHINE

SO MANY QUESTIONS TORMENTING MY MIND

EVIL HAS REARED IT'S UGLY HEAD A CHILD GONE,

NOT ENOUGH SAID OF THE PAIN AND ANGUISH IT CAUSES US ALL

A CHILD IS GONE BUT I STILL HERE HIM CALL

SO I SIT AND MEND MY BROKEN DREAMS, WITH ACHING HEART AND SILENT SCREAMS

IN MEMORY of

WESLEY ALAN MATHESON

9-12-1981---5-6-2002  

I will wait for you to come, some day my angel boy, will take me home.

IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY BROTHER AND FRIEND... 
PATRICK SEAN COOKE 1971/2000 
I'M FREE 
DONT GRIEVE FOR ME, FOR NOW IM FREE 
IM FOLLOWING THE PATH GOD LAID FOR ME 
I TOOK HIS HAND WHEN I HEARD HIM CALL 
I TURNED MY BACK AND LEFT IT ALL 
I COULD NOT STAY ANOTHER DAY
TO LAUGH, TO LOVE, TO WORK OR PLAY 
TASKS UNDONE MUST STAY THAT WAY 
I FOUND THAT PEACE AT CLOSE OF DAY 
IF MY PARTING HAS LEFT A VOID 
THEN FILL IT WITH REMEMBERED JOY 
A FRIENDSHIP SHARED, A LAUGH, A KSS, AH, YES, 
THESE THINGS I TOO WILL MISS 
BE NOT BURDENED WITH TIMES OF SORROW
I WISH YOU THE SUSHINE OF TOMORROW 
MY LIFE'S BEEN FULL, I'VE SAVORED MUCH, 
GOOD FRIENDS, GOOD TIMES, A LOVED ONE'S TOUCH 
PERHAPS MY TIME SEEMED ALL TOO BRIEF, 
DON'T LENGTHEN IT NOW WITH UNDUE GRIEF 
LIFT UP YOUR HEARTS AND SHARE WITH ME 
GOD WANTED ME NOW HE SET ME FREE.... 
We will love you forever, Patrick... Debbie, Bill and Chris 

Nicole Velez
There is a quality about you Nicole Velez 
That touches Us deep in our heart 
your fathers and mine! 
This quality is so special 
It sets us quite Together as one! 
luv ur dad and his wife 
Ramon-n-Desree Velez!! 


The Depths of My Soul
By Eli

The Depths of My Soul

There’s a burning yearning to be
Extinguished
A Love that knows no limits
A pain that’s persistent
In a Life that’s so optimistic

 The Depths of My Soul…

Shows a smile that crys
A logic that defies
A simplistic way to rely
Even if all wells seem to run dry

The Depths of My Soul

Is deeper than most can see
Especially the one whom try to judge me
Through my eyes my soul is
Plain as smoke
Most never see it and the rest 
Lose hope

The Depths of My Soul

Knows imperfections
See it quite often
In my reflection
Still I fight for the right 
Direction
In the middle of all this oppression
The Depths of My Soul

Is like a silver reflector at
Night
Like the violent explosion of stick
Dynomite

Like a cool breeze on
A hot summer night
Like an eagle soaring at it’s 
Highest height

The Depths of My Soul

Is enduring
Pretty much worth exploring
A keeper of my word and faith

And to those who don’t understand
My soul, Please! Know
How to hate…

The Depths of My Soul
My Son Eli was shot to death on Friday August 16th
 2002. I found this undated poem among his papers.  I
 didn't even know he wrote poetry...


WONDERING

I wonder what did you think
as your life ebbed away?
If you could have spoken,
what did you have to say?

If you could have lived
I wonder what part
Of the awful incident you'd
have kept in your heart?

Were your thoughts pleasant,
or were you troubled and surprised?
Did you communicate with God?
Were there tears in your eyes?

God knows what's best
and he knows our pain,
but how long does it take
for broken hearts to smile again?

Only God knows
about the problems you bore,
and I pray someday
my wondering will be no more!

Written by Linnie H. Neely 
the Grandmother of KP

Big Beautiful Eyes

Oh ! Soft White Clouds and Deep Blue Skies
Open Up ! and let us once again see :
Our Baby Tati's Big Beautiful Eyes
Once Again ! Filled with Joy over
Playing with a toy or a little girl, or a little boy.
Take away our fears and dry our tears
Our baby is an Angel in Heaven Up Above
We cannot hold her and give her " All of Our Love"
Who would have known that in a few minutes time-
Our lives would be lifeless
because of this awful crime.
Our hearts feel as though they have been stabbed with a knife,
Because someone has taken our Tati's Life.
Our minds they struggle to venture on -
Our souls cry out everytime we have to see the one,
who did this to our Angel !
Oh! Merciful God !
She was so innocent - ONLY 2 (Two) Years Old !
            Her Love and Her Spirit so Bright and so Bold !
We think of all the families who suffer this fight !
Day after Day !  Night after Night !
Our Angel on Earth is now an Angel in Heaven
She spreads her wings and flies so freely
I think what keeps us going is knowing someday
We will see her Big Beautiful Eyes
and she will be looking back at us, oh so sweetly.
Until then we will wonder - we will struggle and fight for all
the children and families who suffer and try with all of their might: 
to forget the tragic way
Our loved ones left this life , and are now nowhere in our sight.
No Family ! Should ever have to say their baby or child was
killed or murdered !
Everyday I Pray ! That families not be victims all their lives and
have to learn to live like this day after day
year after year
night after night
Seeing their lives now in a whole new way !
Never to be the same
Living with fear-grief and pain !
Oh !   Soft White Clouds and Deep Blue Skies
Open Up and Let Us See Once Again !
Our Baby Tatiana's Big Beautiful Eyes
Filled with Joy over playing with a toy or a little girl or a
little boy !
Because We Miss Her and Love Her So !
Our Arms Ache to Hold Her - Give Her Our Love
and Watch Her Grow !

Dedicated to : Tatiana Inaia Marie Hall
April 26, 1995-May 18, 1997 ( 2 years and 22 days on God's  Earth )
From:  Mommy-Daddy-( Me-Maw )
Written by : Me-Maw With All Of Her Heart-Soul and Love
     

First Connection 
 written by 
Wendy Nicole Dickens 
8/31/76 - 3/25/98

When we first met, for the first time, 
it was love at first site
If I had my way I would marry you tonight
We talked on the phone,
it's just not enough
I love you so much
When we split apart my life is rough
sooner or later we will be back together
and back in each others arms
Then I can hold you,
until the sunlight of tomorrow
I love you more with each passing day
in my heart our love will always stay
with my hand in yours,
I love you so much, 
I feel like a dove that soars in the air
Thank God for first connections and 
thank God I found you

written October 1993
submitted by her Mom


In Memory of the Unjustified Death of 
Rebekah-Marie Bales Zask 
7/6/80 - 7/19/01 

I imagine her spirit drifting through the night, 
And when I told my sister of the strength I gain 
From knowing she was happy when she died, 
The chills came on me 
I imagined they were her, trying to hug me. 

I imagine her flitting 
The way butterflies do, but a spirit, 
Like a long low string of a cloud, 
As she goes here, there, all through this 
Heartless megalopolis, to tell us all 
That she knows, she cares, she loves still. 

Though she is much too still, so 
Robbed of her body, so rudely, 
Bitter. 
Pissed. 
Killed. Killed is not the same 
As merely dead. 

© Barbara Bales 2001 all rights reserved 


A MOTHER'S LOVE

MICHAEL MY SON, MY LOVE, AND MY SOUL ,
YOU WERE TAKEN  FROM ME, BEYOND MY CONTROL. 
YOU DIDN'T DESERVE THE FATE THAT YOU FACED, 
I WOULD GIVE ALL I HAVE, TO HAVE TAKEN YOUR PLACE.

THE PAIN OF MY LOSS IS SO HARD TO BARE, 
MY LIFE HAS BECOME A LIFE OF DESPAIR. 
I TAKE EACH DAY ONE STEP AT A TIME, 
WITH YOU IN MY HEART AND FOREVER ON MY MIND . 
I KNOW IN MY HEART THERE'S A TIME WHEN WE'LL BE, 
FOREVER TOGETHER FOR ETERNITY. 
YOUR NIECE'S WILL KNOW YOU WITH EACH DAY THEY GROW. 

FOR MY SON MICHAEL PIAZZA

I LOVED YOU FROM THE FIRST TIME I HELD YOU IN MY ARMS.
LOVE 
MA

LILLIAN WALLA

STEPHEN
Stephen was my Brother and I Loved Him so,
Why God took Him I'll never know,
We were as close as Brothers could be,
Always out playing or climbing a tree,
Sleeping together night after night,
Swimming together when the Sun was bright,
Then it was Basketball, and running around,
Chasing the Girls all over the Town.
Then He met Susie and off they would go,
Out to the Malls, or off to the Show,
Then I met Robbie My soon to be Wife,
I thought We Three would be together for Life!
Then came the Wedding, Oh,How happy were we,
He was my Best Man, And I Loved Him you see,
But as We grew older, We grew apart,
But GOD, when You took Him, You broke my Heart!
Your Big Brother, Tony

A Thorn

He began to cry as the water reaches the boat and
rocks it back, forth, back, forth.  His tears roll
slowly down his young face and fall into the ocean below.
"Alone," he thinks, "AM I ALONE?" I feel empty - incomplete."
In his hand is a rose free from thorns that protected her.
The rose was pulled before it could blossom, and her blanket was
stripped except for one tiny thorn.  The boy pricks his finger on the thorn
and drops the dying rose.  On the deck of the boat, the rose lies unopened.
The blood from the boy's finger trickles down his hand.  He kisses the cut
softly, and the sky gives birth to rain.  The rain washes the boy's tears away,
and he stands still, drinking nature's life giver.  He knows what he has missed
now.  The rose that lay on the deck also drinks the rain. and she opens her
petals for the boy.  The boy picks her up and holds her to his cheek.  The boy
then smiles as life washes his tears away.....

      by...........     Renee DiCicco, murdered June 10th, 2000

Submitted by her Father Carlo DiCicco


 ANGELS CRY

I HARDLY REMEMBER THE DAY YOU DIED
SOME SAY IT RAINED I CANT SAY IT TRUE
BUT IT MAY HAVE BEEN, FOR I KNOW THE ANGELS CRIED

I’VE NEVER SEEN ANY ANGLES CRY
BUT IM SURE THEY DID
AS THEY STOOD BY YOUR SIDE

AS THE SUN FADED AWAY
THE SKYS TURNED TO GRAY
AS THE WORD YELLED WAS YOUR NAME
GOD ALSO DID THE SAME

HE HELD YOU BY YOUR HAND
AND TOOK YOU BY HIS SIDE
AND THE ANGELS STOOD THEIR
AS THEY WATCHED AND CRIED

NOT ONLY DO ANGELS CRY
FOR WE DO TO JOE
FOR WE CRY EVERYDAY
WONDERING WHY YOU HAD TO GO

BUT KNOW YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE
WHERE THE ANGELS NOW SMILE
AND FOR US THERE'S AN ANGEL
WITH YOUR LITTLE FACE

FOR WE ALL NOW KNOW
WHEN SOMEONE DIES
NOT ONLY US BUT ANGELS
ALSO CRY.
written for Joe Manuel Moreno, Jr
by Pearl Moreno

 

THE ANGELS

Did the angels come from heaven
to help you through that night
Did they feel your terror
And take away your fright

Did the angels bear the pain
That was being done to you
Did they hear your cries of fear
And stayed to help you through

Did the angels hold you tightly
The way I would of done
Did they know how I would feel
And wish they were the one

Did the angels cry out loudly
For the unjustness of your plight
Did they call Lord Jesus
And lead you to the light

Did the angels softly kiss your cheek
Before you took your leave
Did they remind you how I loved you so
And forever more I'd grieve

Did the angels whisper in your ear
Don't worry you will not go alone
Did they know part of me went with you
The day God called you home

In Memory of my daughter Mary
Sadly missed and Loved
     Mom

STEVE
Your death was so tragic and needless,
You were much to young to die,
You had a whole life ahead of you
And when you left, you made everyone cry,
No one understands why you had to go,
It was a shock, really hard to take,
You broke alot of hearts Son,
For you had so much at stake,
We'll never forget you, Dear Steve,
Nor your Memory will never grow old,
We need more like you,
For you had a heart of gold,
You left here in a hurry,
Not knowing you were to die,
We didn't have time for hugs or kisses,
Not even a good-bye.
     Love Mom
(This poem was written after Steve died in 1988)
(Steve's Mom is Sandra)

~ MY SON ~

Candles, my son, shine for you
Roses add their fragrance too,
Midst the tears of calling your name
But only to hear it come back to the same.

I call you my son, hoping you'll hear
Wanting to run and wipe away my tear,
You call, "Don't cry Mom, please do not cry
I am so very happy," you say with a sigh.

This place is so beautiful the hills oh so green,
Heaven is more glorious that eye has ever seen.
The roses more fragrant, the air oh, so clear
You must not forget that I'm much happier here.

Oh Mother, don't cry, there is so much to do
But for the time, I send my love down to you.
So now my dear Mom, you have nothing to dread
I'll lie on the hills with flowers to cradle my head.

One day, Mom, you'll know the peace that is here.
Please, Mom, don't worry, there's no reason to fear
That I might be alone, frightened or scared,
I have my God who has so gloriously prepared
for us......our whole family.....a home of pure joy
Where no one's unhappy, not one girl or boy.

For no fathers or mother, no tears do they shed,
For our Father watches o're us, so we do not tread
On sorrows or pain, but only blessings above
All of these pains, fly away on the wing of the dove.

Written by Debby
In Memory of her son Carl

CHRISTOPHER

God looked around his garden and found an empty place.
He then looked down upon this earth, and saw your worried face.
He put his loving arms around you and lifted you to rest.
your carefree loving nature, kindness and unselfishness
Your roads of life were getting rough the hills harder to climb 
God decided to close your tiresome eyes, Leaving your worries behind 
he came to you when you needed him, whispering softly 
"Peace Be Thine."

Loosing you has broken my heart, 
destorted all of my dreams
an ongoing wait for you to call or a visit that will never be
A piece of me died with you that night 
"the night God called you home" still tiny pieces of me die each day
just to know you are really gone
Gods garden must be so beautiful always taking the very best
a garden of Angels from 
all corners of the Earth,
North, South, East and West
So many good hearts, such caring souls
stars of memories, sunlit smiles of gold

Take care of  moms ole' heart, take care of my memories 
holding them close in view
some peacefilled night or joyful day 
the rest of me will find you !

Love you my son 
Mom
Christopher was murdered March 9 or 10, 2000
Christopher's Mom is DiDi

~~ RAINBOW ~~

YOUR TIME WITH US WAS FAR TOO SHORT...THERE SHOULD HAVE BEEN MORE YEARS...TO SPEND WITH LAUGHTER AND NOT THE TEARS~~ THERE WAS NO TIME FOR GOOD-BYES OR KISSES ON THE CHEEK...OUR FAREWELL HAS BEEN LEFT, TOTALLY INCOMPLETE~~ YOU HELPED ME PICK OUT YOUR FUNERAL CLOTHES AND TOLD ME TO, "LOOK TO THE LEFT FOR THE RAINBOW"...AND WHEN I SAW THAT BEAUTIFUL RAINBOW, I KNEW THAT YOU SENT IT TO ME, TO EASE THE PAIN, AS I GO~~ EVEN THOUGH, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART... TO SEE YOUR FACE AND TOUCH YOU AGAIN, WOULD BE THE GRATEST PART~~SO, I WILL CONTINUE TO LOOK FOR YOU IN THE RAINBOW, UNTIL IT IS MY TIME TO ALSO GO........ 

Written for Jason by Mom.

Golden hair and eyes of blue

sent down from Heaven 
you were mommies dream come true

A beautiful smile 
and a laugh so sweet
you made mommy feel complete

Small arms with big hugs to give
you gave mommy a reason to live

Rose petal lips 
with kisses so sweet
it made mommy happy 
just to hear the pitter-patter of your tiny feet

Little white casket
they shut the lid
mommy would have gave her life
so you could have lived

Two years of sadness
two years of pain
my grieve has taught me
things I can't explain

Two years without you
two years apart
has only brought you closer
to mommy's heart.

written by Michelle
mommy to my precious angel Hayley Anna

IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY AN MEMORIES WERE A LANE, I WOULD WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN TO BRING YOU HOME AGAIN. NO FAREWELL WORDS  WERE SPOKEN , NO TIME TO SAY GOODBYE, YOU WERE GONE BEFORE I KNEW IT AND ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY. MY HEART STILL ACHES IN SADNESS AND SECRET TEARS STILL FLOW, WHAT IT MEANT TO LOSE YOU NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW. 

I MISS YOU SO!  LOVE MOM (DEBORAH LANHAM) 
I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU JOHN LANHAM IV!

 To The Wind Beneath My Wings

A year today has gone by. A year today I still cry; a year today I still ask why. Don't question they say. So Quan, I just pray everynight, everyday; looking at the sky above- star, moon, things-- looking mostly to you The Wind Beneath My Wings, the one I love.
submitted by JaQuan's Mom 


 

The Howling

There is a sound
that if you are very lucky in this life you will never hear,
(and luckier still if you never have a reason to make it)
it’s the howling, the howling.

The best actor in the world
could never recreate it,
for you actually have to feel it – you cannot fake it,
it’s the howling, the howling.

I first heard it early one morning this March
my mother on the phone,
your brother has been murdered
oh the howling, the howling.

In the cold morgue, Dad and I had to identify
his little handicapped body stabbed 36 times, throat slit,
How could someone do this to one so defenseless?
Please God No, oh the howling, the howling.

It came again too soon – that afternoon
I had to tell the children,
Your dear uncle, something terrible, how can I ever explain?
have you ever heard a child howling, howling?

Seven weeks later, it came again
my in-laws said “we want nothing to do with you now”,
My husband begs them “please, please don’t”
How could someone? – oh the howling, the howling.

Christmas now, months later still
on a trip away, my father asleep near me,
In the middle of the night I hear
again, again – the howling, the howling.

And sometimes I can’t help but go
and turn the shower up so high,
Collapse and cry and here it comes
the howling, the howling.

It is the only sound not from your throat,
it only comes from your tormented soul,
My God, pray you never hear
that howling, that howling.

Written by Kimberly Jess
Dedicated to her beloved brother Frank Stephen Yazum
who was murdered March 23, 2000

Our favorite prayer to recite together***
GOD GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE, THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN, AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
You, my sweet baby brother always told me to live life to it's fullest each and everyday.
To Patrick
From his sister Debbie D.

LENIERE

A million times we've needed you, 
A million times we've cried; 
If love alone could have saved you 
You never would have died. 
If all the world was ours to give 
We would give, yes, and more. 
To see you coming up the steps 
To hear your voice, to see your smile, 
To sit and talk with you a while. 
To see you in the same old way 
It would be our fondest day. 
A heart of gold stopped beating, 
Two eyes closed to rest, 
God broke our hearts to prove to us 
He takes only the best. 

We miss you so much........... 
Your children,Raekwon, Keiayven, La Shae 
Mom,Nana,Ayanna, Jamin, Patrick, Bettina, Beverly, Kisha,Jessi and many friends and family 

In Loving Memory of Patrick Cooke 
My Brother and True Friend

When I must leave you for a little while
Please do not grieve and shed wild tears
And hug your sorrow to you through the years,
But start out bravely with a gallant smile
And for my sake and in my name
Live on and do all things the same
Feed not your loneliness on empty days
But fill each waking hour in useful ways
Reach out your hand in comfort and in cheer
And I in turn will comfort you and hold you near
And never, never be afraid to die
For I am waiting for you in the sky!!

Helen Steiner Rice

Patrick Cooke's Big Sis
Debbie D

Missing You

I'll never forget the day
My life was turned upside down
I couldn't breathe
I didn't know what to say
The tears fell to the ground

I wasn't ready for you to go
To claim your place in heaven
Where the streets are paved with gold
Where the river of life flows
A place where life truly begins

You were not only my brother
But my best friend
A bond no other could ever compare
A connection that can never be severed
My love for you will never end

     But the pain runs so deep within
     Pouring through the hole in my heart
     A hole that can never be filled
     A place I save for you
     Until we meet again
     In heaven where we will never be apart
     Ever again

Until then I will keep you in my dreams
I will hold on to the memories
I will never give up hope
As hard as it seems
We will be together again

In loving memory of my Brother
~Your Brother Chris~
Chris Cothren

          LOST 

Its been a year since I lost you
Wondering how I could go on
What would I do?

You were the one who taught me 
to live and helped me out
But now your gone
How could that be?

Now who will teach and love
my boys
Bring laughter to them and 
All the joys?

The way a grandfather suppose to do
From the day you got that name
I knew my kids were blessed
Cause their grandfather was you.

But, we lost you now
and they miss you so much
for you were their one a father and all
for they had no such.

They'll meet up with you some day
catch up to the lost times they've spent alone
hugs and kisses will go on for ever
as they meet up there in their new home.
    love you daddy, always Pearl Moreno
 

"WHERE TO GO"

Watch me walk away, 
I am floating today, 
I can feel the way, 
your words have decayed. 
Can you see me here? 
The world is very clear, 
answers start to appear, 
I can see your fear. 
Now I know, 
where to go, 
now I know, 
who to show, 
your love was, 
a friend to me. 
my love now, 
sets me free. 

-GOLDIE
by Michael Goldie-Ryder
1978-1999

YOU WERE AS BRIGHT AS THE SUN,
SWEET AS THE FLOWERS.
I'M MISSING YOU KYLE,
BY PASSING HOURS.
SHINING BLUE EYES,
WIDE OPEN SMILE.
THE MEMORIES OF YOU,
OF MY SWEET LITTLE KYLE.
I SAW YOU LYING THERE,
SO PEACEFUL AND CONTENT.
I BEGAN TO CRY,
FOR IN AND OUT OF LIFE YOU WENT.
I CAN STILL REMEMBER,
YOUR VOICE THAT DAY.
SAYING KNEE-KNEE I LOVE YOU,
BUT SLOWLY FADING AWAY.
ITS HARD WITH YOU NOT HERE,
US BEING SO FAR APART.
BUT YOUR KEPT CLOSE AND NEAR,
ALWAYS IN MY HEART.
YOUR BIRTHDAY IS SOON,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET KYLE.
I WISH YOU THE STARS AND THE MOON,
AND HUGS AND KISSES WORTH A MILE.
YOUR IN EACH OF MY PRAYERS,
AND EVERY WISH I MAKE.
BEING TAKEN FROM US,
WAS ONE OF GODS MISTAKES.
I LOVE YOU TO DEATH,
I WANT YOU TO KNOW.
NO ONE CAN TAKE YOUR PLACE,
YOUR SPIRIT NEED NOT GO.
I KNOW YOUR IN HEAVEN NOW,
SAFE IN GODS CARE.
GOD MADE YOU A GUARDIAN ANGEL,
UNTIL MOM AND ME GET THERE.
DEDICATED TO MY 3YR OLD BROTHER:K.J.
MISS YOU BUNCHES,LOVE BIG SISTER TIFFANY 

  So Young
So Young! So Young!
Your life's blood spilled
On ground uncaring, cold.
So Young! So Young! 
To have been killed
Such evil life unfolds.

So young! Could not be long ago
In mother's arms you lay
So trusting as all babies know
That fathers love will stay.

So young! Could be just yesterday
With family and friends,
In childhood you would run and play
Such faith as life begins!

So young! So little time to learn
From problems and mistakes
So little time life's joys to earn,
When young life evil takes.

So young! So young!
In grief and pain
We see you lifeless lie.
So Young! So Young! 
With grief and pain
We have to say good-bye.

In Loving Memory of our daughter Tracy
Murdered  11/1/91
Your Memory Will Always be with us!
Love  Mom , Dad,  Stacy

Samantha Rhodes Murdered at the age of 12
08/04/1985 -- 03/24/1998
Poem written by mom:Brenda Bratton

“ I Must Let You Go”

I go to sleep each night and you’re not tucked in your bed, Morning comes and you’re not here, I listen for your voice, not one word is said. I began my day missing you, not knowing what to say or do. I look into the mirror only to see sadness upon my face, The day has ended with God’s grace. 

Tears began as I lay still in my bed, Thoughts of you tumbling in my head. I weep, until I fall to sleep. Awaken by the smell of your hair, I see you in a soft white glare. A beautiful blonde angel comes to my feet, she begins to speak. Momma, close your eyes for I remain in your memory forever,I’m where I want to be, no more tears no more fears.I’m safe in the arms of my farther for he knows how much you cared”. He knows the love we once shared, So now momma, you must let me go. My dear little girl, "Remember me" as you walk the streets of gold, I knew you were chosen to be my guardian angel, as he once chose you to be my little girl. 

"Samantha, the little girl I must let go." 


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